I stood under the pavilion and looked upon the empty tables and chairs that had just been full. My eyes started to fill a bit and I could feel the lump forming in my throat. It’s done. Everyone is gone and it may be ten years before our paths cross again.
This emotion of sadness came unexpected. It caught me off guard.
Maybe it was the let down of knowing the anticipation of planning my 20th year reunion was over or maybe it was because I had just spent time with friends that I had done life with many years ago and I didn’t want it to be over so quickly.
The next week came and a similar experience of sadness came over me as I walked away from a rodeo held at the fair my kid’s had spent the week showing their lambs at. As I said goodbye to the lambs we had raised and walked to the car my eyes again became filled and there that lump was again forming in the back of my throat.
Maybe it’s because I was exhausted and I don’t like goodbyes or maybe it’s because another week that we have been working hard for, for months had passed and time is not stopping.
Now before you go on thinking I’m an emotional mess, well maybe some days but the truth is life seems to be on full speed right now. My husband and I just celebrated our 16th anniversary and then celebrating 20 years since high school seems crazy.
We had the opportunity to walk the campus of the junior high and high school that I had attended. As I walked the halls and stepped into classrooms and gyms memories flooded my heart. Good choices I had made, and not so good choices came flooding back. Even with so much time passing those memories seemed like yesterday. Has it really been that long?
Have you felt the same this summer? That time is flying?
Some days I wish I could stop the clock. Can my kids just stay at these ages? Not sure I’m ready for teenagers. Can I just stop getting older? No more wrinkles please.
But the reality is time is not going to stop. The earth will keep spinning and the sun will come up again tomorrow.
I was reminded this morning from a verse in Ecclesiastes 3:11 “He has made everything beautiful in its time”.
While we may feel like life is cruising the Lord has His hand on it and will continue to have His hand on it. He hasn’t sped up the rotation of the earth. It will continue at the same speed as long as He wishes. We are the ones who choose what we will do with the time we have been given.
As we near the end of this summer vacation I find myself feeling grateful. Grateful for family memories and learning opportunities and reminded how important it is to value the time you have been given with others you care about. I hope you can find moments to be grateful for as well.
Have a great week or two before school starts!